I feel fucking insane. Ill go for weeks where everything is all dandy then i hit a brick wall, and man do i hit hard. I come crashing down and i feel like im going to cave in on myself. Its as if i cannot breathe, i cant catch my breath. I feel like i may implode. I crumble to pieces and just lose it. I go to the darkest corners of my mind, sit there, and begin to fester. And tonight as im crashing, hitting that low spot, i hit pause and think of you. I think of your sleepy face looking up at me as im about to leave for work, holding me there a little longer as you whisper i love you. I think of how you jump on me and tickle me and i let you because it makes you smile. I think of the times when we lay in bed and you tell me all the things you want to do in life, and its like the sweetest lullaby i could ever have. I think of the other day when i let you play christmas music even though i hate it because you love it and it makes you happy. Your smile is the best medicine i could ask for. The little moments we share resonate inside me and its the best therapy i could ever get. You remind me that there are good things in life, and you make me want to be a better person for you. I love you so much, so incredibly much. You are my light at the end of the tunnel. An angel sent to guide me through the darkness. You are my best friend. So ill hang on to the thoughts of you to remind myself life is beautiful.